What I Wrote On Twitter

whats the point of life if everybody is just better off without you anyway... i was the problem child. i never did anything. my sisters do everything that i should be doing. i never got any respect or freedom. but i guess thats because i was a failure at life. so what was i really? im probably the kid they wish they never had. and now that im gone everything is just fine and dandy. my parents didnt even think i was gonna graduate hs. they didnt pay for my college apps. was not gonna pay for college fees. they werent gonna cosign for a loan. and if they dont have any money wtf did my dad spend $400 per rim for his car thats $1600. and since i was such a problem child and i got no respect or freedom or support, i left. and then they took my car. so now i wake up at 5 to catch two city buses to get to school on time at 7:30 am. but even here im still not happy. Happier yes. but im still down sometimes. my uncle thinks that i expect them to support me. i never asked for that. my grandma worries too much so i have to call every few hours. i mean it not that bad, but i can even go out for a few hours after school b4 i go home. i tell her not to cook dinner for me if im not home. but she yells at me because i didnt call and tell her i was not gonna be home for dinner on time. and when she asks me if i wanna eat and i say no she makes it anyways and then gets mad because i dont wanna eat it. and my uncles dont think im looking for a job. well you know what its friggen hard to get a job now adays especially when you dont have any prior experience. the economy is tough right now. i dont have transportation. people are getting laid off, getting their hours cut. its not easy getting a job right now. so what am i to do. i dont know about anything right now. im just falling into a bottomless pit. i have no money. i dont even have all my books i need for school. my dad expects my uncles to pay for it. and my cousins keep harrasing me on my i moved. and my parents are mad because i didnt tell them. well the day before i moved i was hit with a plastic bat. and that just pushed me over the edge. being pissed off and stressed all the time because your parents dont think you do shit, they think youre dumb, and they dont believe or support you. its just a bad environment. its not healthy. but my uncles had i worse when they were little and i believe them. but doesnt mean i cant handle it either. i would just rather not deal with it. am i running away from my problems, no i dont think so, im just changing my environment so that i can do what i need to do. how can i do good in school going home everyday like that. and i say i hate school but its where im most happy cuz i am away from my family. that why i did so much band when i was in high school. im around people who wanna do that same thing i was do. playing music was so much fun. i miss it. i may have seemed like i didnt like it but did. nd during the last two years or so of HS i started going to church. unlike some people i like going to church and bible study. i learn so much about what i need to become a better christian and strengthen my relationship with Christ. and again it was a time for me to get away from my family. i even tried inviting them to come with me. but of course they didnt want to. i stopped going because i was busy sometime but also because my parents didnt want to drive me. they always told me if i wanna do something theni have to fine a ride there and back... even if it was church or bible study. and i didnt wanna keep troubling people with giving me rides all the time so i stopped going. i went back to bible study a few times in the past weeks, and i miss it so much. i dont know how a kid like me has wanted to learn so much about God when he has a family that never even went to church or reads the bible. so now im at lbcc with no help from my parents. living at my grandparents house. sigh i need a job so i can get my own place. buy a car. so i can go to church and bible study and am able to drive to work and school. i need to pay for books, and the upcoming semesters. need to do good in school so i can transfer to a 4 year college so i can get a good job so i can make enough money to support myself. have i just made my situation worse my moving out of my house?? i really dont know. but what i do know is that i dont know what to do next...

twitter

so about 9-10 yesterday aug 27 2009 i was twittering non-stop for an hour. maybe ill transfer it into here so i can be one big block. we'll see though...

The begining of the rest of my life.

Wow ok so senior year is now over. Everything just went by so fast! I remember Middle school like it was yesterday. And Elementary school the day before! But now I am an official alumni of Millikan High School. I've never been to good with words. So much has happened. I don't even know where to start. Or how to explain any of it. Well its August now and I start my first day of college this upcoming Monday. I will be attending LBCC (Long Beach City College). Summer was so short! I got to go up north and Visit family and friends. And then there's the ones I didn't get to see. I wanna to make a trip up there again soon so I can visit the people I missed while i was up there. Now my friends are I are trying to write and record some songs. And also waiting for college to start! ECK!! Well lets see how it goes.

First Post of 2009

Well so much for writing in my blog. XD
Lets see it's MLK Jr. weekend. Finals start on Tuesday. Going to California Adventure the Monday after that. We aren't marching down main street like usual because they are redoing it.
Life. I've been reading everybody's blogs the past few hours. Mine seems so lame compared to everybody else. I don't like to write. But maybe that's because I don't know how to express myself. Reading on the other hand makes up for not writing. Reading everybody's blogs has been very enlightening.
Now time to do a project.

sooo...

Ok so since I dont have any money and my aunts and uncles want me to go to LBCC and CSULB I have to go since they are paying for my apps. -_- I don't want to go to CSULB though. I'm taking the SAT II tests and retaking the SAT so I can have some chance of getting to a UC school. So I'm try hope I get in, I really don't want to go to CSULB. it too crowded and it's too close to my house. I want to get away from here. So my apps are as follows CSULB, LBCC, UCI. still kinda want to go to CSUF though instead of CSULB, but oh well.

And this is what I forgot!

Ok so while I was eating dinner I remembered what else i wanted to write! XD
So yeah more happenings:
Marching Band: We went to our first competition on Saturday. It was the Loara Field Show Tournament at Glover Stadium in Anaheim. Our color guard placed 1st and the band placed 2nd. We are a very small band only 1A, we have less then 50 people and that includes color guard. The next competition well be in a few weeks.
Church: I am also currently practicing for the Christmas Choir Concert, and I am hopefully going to play in the Church Christmas Band too.
Till next time.

Blogging

So I think I actually will try to blog. They are very useful and fun to read, so here is goes...

My happenings right now:
Its Senior Year. YAY! I can believe I have almost survived high school. Its been fun these past three years getting to know people and stuff. School is school -_-. Getting ready for college in the upcoming year. College applications are due soon. Since my grades are that great, I am thinking I am going to go to Junior College and then transfer. But I am still gonna apply to a few 4 year schools to see what happens. I am Applying to CSULB, CSUF, CPP, and UCI. I really doubt I will get into UCI because the UC system won't even look at your application without a 3.0 and i have nothing close to that. So lets see how this go.
Been going to church now-a-days. Its awesome. It's like one big happy family. It's crazy how I am connected to some of the people there. It's a Filipino congregation, well mostly anyway. They are very hospitable people. I also am going to the Youth Bible Studies, which are on Friday night's, and College and Career Bible Studies which are on Wednesday night's.
I don't know what to say so I guess that's it for now.
I would like to thank Hannah for she is the one who is getting me into this.
I'll try to write as often as I can. I really don't know when that will be but I'll try.
WISH ME LUCK!

Geek CODE

More chalk drawings from Julian Beever. Scroll down slowly and stop at each new frame. Julian Beever is an English artist who's famous for his art on the pavement of England, France, Germany, USA, Australia and Belgium . Beever gives to his drawings an amazing 3D illusion. People are actually avoiding walking in the "hole" Which is the real guy &which beer is real? The image below has been taken from a wrong angle: Remember, both his feet in reality are flat on the pavement Politicians Meeting Their End This drawing of a Rescue was to be viewed using an inverting mirror girl on a beach mat. Make Poverty History drawing from the side(40 ft long) Spiderman to the rescue Batman and Robin to the rescue(SO COOL) in order to repost, click reply to poster, and copy all the codes and stuff to a NEW bulletin Monday, July 25, 2005 Geek CODE -----BEGIN GEEK CODE BLOCK----- Version: 3.1 GU d s: !a((----)(-----)) C++ U? P? L? E? W+++ N? O K- w++++ O--- M V? PS PE Y? PGP t+ 5? X R(*) tv b DI+ D? G e- h! !r !z ------END GEEK CODE BLOCK------ About Me Name: Randomasian Location: LB, California, United States View my complete profile Blogs I Follow xSiMpLy_MeeHx GooberKitchen SteelRealm bananuhbee xXhellohannahxX flipinesedude Previous Posts What I Wrote On Twitter twitter The begining of the rest of my life. First Post of 2009 sooo... And this is what I forgot! Blogging More chalk drawings from Julian Beever. Scroll... Geek CODE Archives July 2005 March 2006 October 2008 January 2009 August 2009